Category: LGBTQ+

  • If I Should Die Before I Wake

    If I Should Die Before I Wake

    Trigger Warning: Child abuse is an inextricable part of my story. This is the first entry where instances of abuse will be mentioned. I said “I love you” to my abuser. I wrote “Love, Steph” in cards. I spent more than a few years trying to make myself small enough to satisfy her. I participated…

  • Caleb’s Story: Resolution and Resources

    Caleb’s Story: Resolution and Resources

    (Part 6. New readers can click here to start at the beginning of the story.) Caleb gave me permission to share this story back in 2020. Obviously, I thought about it for quite some time. I wanted to handle it honestly and faithfully. There is so much more that I could share and perhaps will,…

  • Caleb’s Story: Healing

    Caleb’s Story: Healing

    (Part 5. New readers can click here to start at the beginning of the story.) Caleb was gesturing and speaking with an urgency that made me immediately regret making him wait to tell me. As I reached out to hug and reassure him, I wished that there was someone there to hug and reassure me.…

  • Caleb’s Story: Eyes Opening

    Caleb’s Story: Eyes Opening

    (Part 4. New readers can click here to start at the beginning of the story.) During Caleb’s high school years, I kept busy with homeschooling, Caleb’s vocal training, and my kids’ local theater involvement on top of my church volunteer work. But my mind was still churning because a bumper crop of national church and…

  • Caleb’s Story: My Mind’s Dissonance

    Caleb’s Story: My Mind’s Dissonance

    Our family made an unspoken pact that day for my sake. For years we continued to pretend that the obvious wasn’t the obvious. And my son carried the weight of his burden alone until it wore away at his soul.

  • Caleb’s Story: The Light Faded From His Eyes

    Caleb’s Story: The Light Faded From His Eyes

    (Part 2. New readers can click here to start at the beginning of the story.) Since I was a serious kid, I held tightly to the church and, as someone riddled with anxieties, held tightly to the assurances the church gave me. It is funny to me now that I recognize just how many of…

  • Caleb’s Story: How I Learned to Be

    Caleb’s Story: How I Learned to Be

    (Part 1) “We accept the reality of the world with which we are presented.” – Christof, The Truman Show I think the foundational doctrine of Christian parenting is what most evangelical and fundamentalist churches refer to as original sin. Parents are taught that every child is born sinful by virtue of being descended from Adam.…