The stories and musings of a former homeschool mom and one-time missionary and pastor’s wife.

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  • My ex-husband’s wife suddenly and unexpectedly died. Most of you who know or follow me know that I went through a general hell for the entirety of my marriage, spanning from 1994 to 2018, when two years of separation mercifully ended in divorce. If you are new, you can read…

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  • Sorry

    Sorry

    Life’s altered you as it’s altered me. What would be the point in living if we didn’t let life change us. – Mr. Carson, Downton…

  • If I Should Die Before I Wake

    If I Should Die Before I Wake

    Trigger Warning: Child abuse is an inextricable part of my story. This is the first entry where instances of abuse will be mentioned. I said…

  • I Don’t Like Mother’s Day

    I Don’t Like Mother’s Day

    May is now in the past and I am feeling like I can breathe again. This happens most years because I find Mother’s Day very…

  • Resources I Have Loved

    Resources I Have Loved

    Early in my journey out of the church, I was still a stay-at-home-mom. In those days I read an average of a book a week…

About Me

Hi. I’m Stephanie, the author behind this blog. At one time, my highest goal was to serve the Lord. That Lord was the god I had been trained to believe was the god of the universe. The god that Christians say was presented in the form of Jesus of Nazareth. There was no greater goal in my denomination’s worldview than to be a missionary, and I felt that I was called from age fifteen. In obedience to that call, I was educated, trained, and became a missionary, pastor’s wife, and homeschool mom. Through the decades, I have come to some very different understandings of theology, humanity, and myself than those that idealistic and easily led teenage girl believed. Here, I write my thoughts about the impact my past beliefs had on me and my family and my observations of how those beliefs influence the world in which we all live.

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